Text me kung nandito ka na

After EVERYTHING that happened what do you expect me to feel? At first I thought of the fairytale scene where I would find you infront of my house waiting outside the rain. But no.. you had my hopes very high. I checked the window and I see no one but just my reflection "umaasa."
Then it hit me, that message is not for me that's for someone else going to your house. someone who wou will meet up with cuddle with, kiss, sleep with in short my replacement. I know you did that already to your ex and why not do it to me? You've been caught and then why not just do it. "We're not together by that time." I could remember those lines coming from your mouth when you told me about that.
3days ago, I know I will forgive you and want to be with you again. But now? I'm starting to doubt.. can you really be my sweet serendipity? Is it really worth it?
I'm even doubting if you will ever fight for me or just give up and get mad. Like what you do always when we fight,
1.I get mad
2.You say sorry
3.I don't forgive
4.You get mad
5.You give up
6.I give in
7.We're happy again


Now what will happen is step number 6 is not do be done? does that mean that no happiness will happen?

I guess I don't know.. nothing..