Effort

I miss you now :((( I know you love me and I want to be with you now and never ever let go but...

If this is what I have to do for you to learn, if this is for the better you and me if this is for our love then I will take all this pain. 

Right now I'm dying.

Every time my cell phone makes a sound my heart pounds like hell wishing it's you. 

Every time someone knocks on my door I'm open it right away because I'm hoping it's you.

I'm even hoping that you read all of this just for you to give a hint that I really do love you and I just want you to learn.

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME :( I know I left you now but I'm so afraid that what if this would make you feel that you don't need me after all. That you will find someone better than me :((

I guess that's the risk of it...And I will risk it. Because I'd rather suffer now than suffer(worst) again after a month or two.

This is driving me crazy. Well I know you can do it, I know you can wait I know, I know :( I hope so, please do. It's hard but I know you will fight for it, don't give up to easily. You can do it right?

I love you so so much.. and don't ever think that I gave up on you that easy, how I wish you didn't do that everything would be perfect then. But no it's not so i will just patiently, painfully, wait for you.