You keep on saying the same thing, same promises, and same reasons of apologizing. You also keep on saying that now you've learned. But why don't I feel it? Why do I feel like you only need me and you will need me is when you're alone. The only time that you really love me and will be forever by my side is when YOU ARE ALONE. Look what's happening today, I know for a fact that you're with you're friend and not a single text from you have reached my cellphone. And then you will say that you will not give up on me? that you will fight for me? and you are showing how much you love me? well, TALK SHIT! fuck you! I'm getting tired of your immaturity. You love me because you need me. It's not the other way around. You love me because you have no one else to go to when you're alone, no one else to be with at most of the time therefore you love me? Is that acceptable? I have become a need and not a want. A need and JUST a need. But if you have found someone else such as friends, groups, and or activities (just like today) then you won't be needing me anymore. Sometimes I just wonder if you're really mature enough.
Which reminds me, the other day I went out with a friend of mine(I know it's not right going out with friends without tell you). But what the hell! are we even together? and just so you know you did the same thing with me and the bad thing is I won't even find out if I didn't stalk you or I didn't make a way. Anyway from yesterday I again found out another secret of yours, another guy involved and again I WAS SHOCKED. shocked not with what you did, because again, what the hell. I expected the worst I was shocked because again you didn't tel me. And this person is a friend of ours whom I though I can trust. But never the less I didn't like that person in the first place anyway. He's just another waste of time for me. I never really trusted that person.
As for my academics, It's been the third time. I've been fighting for this, and now the time is almost ending. I'm almost graduating but not because of this subject I'm not:( These subjects are big hindrance into my march on June. I told my parents already, they even bought my graduation gift. But no again it I'm giving false hope for my parents, my friends and most especially for my friends. I feel such a waste. I feel so useless and so pathetic. 2 subjects in my live I couldn't pass. Why?:( I wanna cry so badly but I guess it's just me the patapon life I have. I get jealous when I see some previous clasmates taking up law already, when I see my batchmates graduating agian and more especially when I see my kabarkada working already. And me? I'm still stuck in school with only 2 fucking subjects. Right now I've given up almost everything, even my love life just for this. I just hope that this sumer everything would be worth it. I just hope so...